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   Perry Spring

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   Hang in the buddy, you will be fine, I know so....
   
   Prayers do work, Monday morning I was in a prayer chat on Christ Haven, and prayed as hard as I could for you......
   
   I know you will be fine...
   
   Your friend,
   
   
   Perry
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   07/24/08

   Reply from RyanED: Perry, I believe I've heard about Christ Haven before. I was invited to post there by somebody who messaged me a while back. I think it was Christ Haven, but perhaps it was another Christian-based forum. They thought it would be a great forum for me to post on, but I never got around to adventuring into ( posting on ) that particular community. Right now, I post very rarely on any forum. I used to be an elite poster and it wasn't unusual for me to post 50 times per day. But as of now, I find myself struggling to feel accepted on any Yuku forum. There's no longer a place I can truly call a friendly forum that will embrace me for who I am... I sort of wore out my welcome on a special Houston Sports Forum I posted on for the past three years. I had over 32,000 posts on there, and I thought I befriended most of the members during the course of three years of dedication and committment to that community. The great people there still want me to continue to post on there, but I need more time away before I come to any conclusions. I just felt I needed time off from everything. I couldn't keep up the pace of posting so much every day. My declining health was a big factor into my decision, but I also felt that sports was taking away a big portion of my life as well. I just couldn't handle writing a book on every one of my posts anymore. The work involved was starting to take its toll on me. And then I started posting in two other forum communities - totaling 400 posts and 100 posts in each respective place, but as it turned out... I wasn't having any fun posting about things that were non-sports related. I felt out of place trying to type about things I wasn't comfortable writing about, such as love ( adult content ) for instance. I ended up making a fool out of myself to tell you the truth. My rambling and ranting nature ( being the writer that I am ), were too much for some people to handle, but most people appreciated the fact I was always honest, sincere and never afraid to wear my heart on my sleeves. So now it's like... What's the point of posting in any forum anymore? All I ever wanted was to feel accepted and like a good friend to people, but it seems like I did more "doing nothing that was all about being negative" instead of "making a positive difference." And now as I struggle with my everyday life ( health issues and all ), I can't even begin to explain what to do next. I don't even know if I have the answer or solution anymore. Becoming healthy is all that should matter to me right now. I like to write and type ( or used to anyway ), and why I could never feel genuinely appreciated for my efforts when it came to forum posting is something I'll always question. Maybe I need to make my own forum and be the administrator, or at the very least I'd like to become a moderator. At least then I could feel more involved with something, instead of a workhorse who doesn't get any recognition or credit for the hard work they put in. All of that sweat, blood and tears I put into those 32,000-plus posts were a big waste of time it seems like. Forget the fact I typed my enlarged heart out to the point of nearly dying, and forget the fact I was the one working harder than anybody else when I should have just been having fun and enjoying life! 07/24/08

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